Saturday, November 7, 2009

A dream

She was following me. I turned the corner, passed two classrooms: Creative writing and creative reading. One of those was hers. I turned around and started walking backwards. My room was next, but I didn't want to miss her.

She turned the corner, saw me and said in a low, familiar voice,

"Hey".

"Hey." I replied.

"Who are you?" she asked.

"Just a kid."

"That's it? No perfectly arranged setlist with "Time of Your Life"?"

'No.' I thought, waking up with the song in my head.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Lux Aurumque



It's not perfect, but let me give you a bit of backstory. Lux Aurumque, light and gold, is a song by modernday composer Eric Whitacre. There are both choral and instrumental arrangements by him. The problem is... I love both.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Thunder

and we're in each other's arms.
Engulfed by the rhythm of raindrops
heartbeats counting out time on the
stickiness of skin against skin.

Somebody's forgotten to draw shut the curtain
A streetlight shines flush on the rivulet window
Casting its shadows upon us, entwined now
Silhouettes tracing their curves on our skin

The tempo on rooftop, alluring, enchants us
Pulls from us each one the night's final cry
Then tucks us away in ourselves and our covers
As we drift away to the storm's lullaby.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Yarn, Rainbow Colored

Take an end, say your name
and toss the ball to somebody across the circle
Yarn, rainbow colored
Our twelfth grade selves couldn't help but grin at the task
But it helped us forget the heat for a time

Remember in kindergarten...
Suddenly I did
Faint, but I remember catching it, proudly proclaiming my name and throwing it to the cute girl opposite me
Heh, puppy love they call it – her name was Brianna
I think
I don't remember the other names now
Don't need to be introduced to those quietly but firmly stating theirs now

Slowly, the cobweb assembled
No, not a cobweb, a dreamcatcher
They taught us to make those in the 2nd grade
...or was it 3rd? 4th?
I still have one made of rainbow yarn in my desk drawer
Funny what places become sanctuary for our treasures

A voice cracked

Regained itself quickly
Not quickly enough to stop the summer's sudden, stuborn re-entry into the room
We completed our task

The string is the connections and memories you've made these past thirteen years
I stared into the yarn, trying not to make eye contact
You are the points that link them
The air was thick, wet and salty

He took a pair of scissors from his desk

And so you don't need the physical connection anymore

We passed the shears around and with sweaty hands
let fall our strands
And although we knew we didn't need them, knew that we had lost them
Each length was pocketed
Because it was our life

ID-4

You're stagnating
Am not.
Are we going to argue like children now?

Sure, could be fun.
You still have an elaboration to do.
Well excuse me for ignoring a friggin' voice in my head! It's not like listening to it is crazy or anything.
Doesn't change the fact that you're stagnating.
So what would you have me do?
Unstagnate.
Oh thank you wonderful wise head-voice. How ever could I get by without my daily dose of obvious?
You've refused to write that last prompt for five weeks now.
So I should get right on that so you'll be happy.
Nah. You should get right on that because it'd be interesting and different. But you're not going to do that.
Oh yeah? How do you know that?
I'm you. Please try to keep up. You're not going to write that yet and that's why you're stagnating. Do some other stuff for a while, I'll be back later.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

A colorful girl

It was one of those backpacks that had every color of the neon rainbow; one of those that would be hopelessly impossible to try to draw because of the sheer number of things that made it up. There were buckles and straps of some sort or another all over, an orange waterbottle stuck out of one of the pockets, and the pouch was filled with glitter pens, pencils, white out, sticky notes and half-used erasers. Looking down I noticed, trying not to chuckle, that her shoes – converses – were also blatantly ignoring the rules of the color wheel... but it worked. She was wearing old blue jeans - they were faded and frayed near her feet and she had a flier sticking out of one of her pockets. It looked like she had tried to stuff it in, but since girls jeans are so tight it had only gotten half way down. Still, it was in no danger of coming loose. From the side I could read the words 'Pirate Club' across the top in bold. I was starting to contemplate this when she stopped abruptly and said, “You're following me.”

I realized with shock that I was. In fact I had been turned around somehow and we were now back in upper-campus. “Wouldn't it be easier just to say hi?” she continued, turning around, “I'm Jill” she flashed a smile and thrust out her hand.

“Andrew.” I said, catching myself after a stunned second of disbelief. Her green eyes brightened and she smiled again.

“That's my brother's name! Though our last name is Campbel so we call him Frost because his initials are A.C.” she said.

“Well, my last name's just Sanders.” I said, a little taken aback by this sudden injection of information. “So unless you like articles, they don't make for interesting initials.” I shrugged; she looked confused. “I mean the part of speech, not the stuff in newspapers... 'As'? It's...nevermind.” I gave up, seeing that I was getting nowhere.

“It's okay, I like it all the same.” She paused and thought for a second. “It feels good to say: Andrew Sanders,” letting the difference between my names slide together on her tongue. “So why were you following me?”

I pointed behind her. “Your backpack.” Though I realized as I said this that there was nothing especially different about it. It was colorful and but not really unique as backpacks go. I might have seen dozens in the past and not have looked twice at them. “I guess I was just trying to figure you out.” I admitted. She frowned. “I mean, not in a creepy way! Have you ever heard of people watching?”

“No.”

“Well, it's exactly what it sounds like and entertaining when you're bored walking to class.. You watch the people around you to try to find out things about them.

“Oh!” she exclaimed, “I think I get it. I actually have to do a lot of that kind of stuff for my job.” We began walking again. “Well, not really a job...” she corrected herself, “more of a... well, not really a hobby either. I mean, I suppose I could call it an avocation but that seems to lose the excitement of it all. I mean, it really is like a job I guess, just without getting paid.... at least not in money.” she decided cheerfully. “Would you like to see it? It's not far from here.”

“See what?”

“Where we work.”

“Wait, who's 'we'?”

“Well, all of us. I'm really just a small part of it”

“Of what?”

“Of the organization” she giggled, skipping out ahead of me. Her backpack crunched as it bounced on her shoulders. “You don't catch on very quickly, do you?”

I had to run to catch up with her, not even sure why I was doing it. Listening to what she had said, however, I thought before speaking again.

“So there's a reason you're not telling me.... well, anything about any of the stuff you just said. Either that or you're crazy and I'm crazier for chasing a crazy girl I just met.”

“Sounds likely.” She was staying a stride or two ahead.

“But if you're not crazy then you won't keep running if I decide to walk.” I slowed down and so did she. “And if you're not telling me something but leading me on, it must be because you won't tell me yet.”


[Sorry! no conclusion yet either. Stay tuned! -John]

Saturday, April 18, 2009

A Dark, Surreal Love Story

Trace was falling, it seemed, through blankets of air. The seconds began to dilate and even separate into their own eternities. His short hair ruffled in show motion, his tensed muscles relaxed and his thoughts drifted. He thought of his cell and how much freer he was now, suspended in this blissful night air. Here, nestled inside a friendly breeze he was finally safe. He didn't have to worry about the fear now. Actually, he didn't have to worry about the fear when he'd been inside his cell either. It wasn't so bad he thought, he shouldn't have left; there wouldn't have been any fear if he had. Why had he left? There was some reason... a broken lock, an inquisitive hand, a strand of dark hair...

Kelsey.

Trace hit the ground running. How much time had he lost? There was no good way to tell and he hoped to hell that he wasn't too late. So long as she was there; PLEASE let her still be there his mind shouted. One corner. Two corners. Three doors down and...

An open gate and empty cell were all that met him. A spattering of blood on the floor, his only greeting. Trace couldn't believe it, he WOULDN'T believe it. After days of planning... and now she was gone; and he would be too if he didn't hurry. No sooner had he thought this than a black chord encircled his waist and pulled tight.

"NO!" he cried in anguish and fury. But he was already being lifted off the ground. Struggling against the thing was useless, it pulled and gripped at him with unnatural gain. He grasped it tightly and turned best he could to face his enemy. He refused to give in. He woudn't go quietly into the.... air duct? He could see very clearly that he was, in fact, being lifted into an air duct, but it made no sense to him, not until he was inside.

"Kelsey!" he shouted as he saw her, slumped against the inside wall. Her shirt was ripped off her shoulder and blood stained the entire thing. Her brown hair clung in coagulated strands to her forehead; her legs, flush against the edges where she must have supported herself to lift him up.

"I knew you'd come." she murmured. " You were just a little late.... nothing wrong with that." as she gave in to exhaustion and blood loss.

--- Needs work... but I needed to get this up. -John ---
--- Edit: Lookit that, I draw'd a picture! Yeah, not quite anguish a fury... more like shock and well, more shock. We'll work on that...---

Saturday, April 4, 2009

ID-3

Hello John
Not now, I'm trying to work out some specifics of that Australian thing from yesterday.
No. You're not done yet.
I'm sorry?
Let it sit. You and I aren't done yet.
Do you really think-
Yes I do. Today is superposition. Give me a series of two unlike concepts.
...
Passive-aggressiveness is weakness.
Catcher in the Sky.
Do you think this is a joke?
A dark and surreal love story, a colorful girl who represents a secret society, a comedy set in a fascist state, what's the point of all this!?
The point is that won't get anywhere until you force yourself to grow! Now elaborate. All of them.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

ID-2

"Boo!"
"...am I supposed to scream?"
"Worth a shot."
"So what is it today?"
"Oh good, you're catching on! Today is the World."
"Our World?"
"No, The World. Let's say I want to set something in the past. When and where?"
"Um, okay, Victorian England."
"Surely you can be more creative than that."
"Australia then. During British colonization."
"Now you're getting somewhere. Let's say the story focuses on right and wrong and additionally, technology scare"
"Alright, that's not so bad. You can work in the themes of right and wrong with the facts that the colonizers were criminals. A character, a group, a community emerges which debates the definitions of right and wrong as defined by the rest of the world. It's isolated, there's nobody to tell them otherwise. There are troubles defining a moral sense and there's always the underlying threat of an island inhabited by criminals.

Technology's where things get fuzzy. There's the new technology brought to the island, of course, but aside from that I don't think there was any sort of industrial revolution going on at the time..."
"Are you sure about your assumptions here?"
"Are you?"
"Oh, there's also time travel."
"What!?"
"This isn't about historical fiction, John. Time travel. Go."
"Alright, so one day a kid follows a koala and falls into a cavern-"
"I'm sorry, I thought we were going to be-"
"-original, yeah, I get it. Okay, then, two lovers get lost in a forest and discover carvings in the land itself. Standing in different areas of the carvings affects time, though it's impossible to notice this at first, at least with any accuracy. The carvings themselves are a maze which when understood can be used to accurately navigate time. The discovery of this, of course is divisive and power struggles, across both the land and time start to control the area. This technology divides and unites across borders formerly thought impenetrable."
"Not bad. Tomorrow again."
"Who exactly do you think you are?"
"...Hello?"

Monday, March 30, 2009

ID

"Alright, John, it's time."
"Time? Time for what?"
"Time to start."
"You're not making any sen-"
"Today is theme and variation; start listing fairy tales."
"...like Little Red Riding Hood?"
"Overdone, keep going."
"uh, Goldilocks."
"..."
"Okay, Jack and the Beanstalk, Sleeping Beauty, the Sword and the Stone, Rapunzel, Hansel and Gretel, "
"Stop!"
"Hansel and Gretel?"
"Yes, that'll work. Summarize please."
"Okkayyyy.... Um, a brother and sister get lost in a forest... or maybe they were abandoned by an evil step-parent of some sort. They find an old...witch? -who lives alone in a house made of sweets. She takes them in with the lure of food and imprisons them, feeding them more and more until they get fat to the point where she intends to eat one or the other. One of the children escapes and cooks the witch instead in a twist of dramatic irony, and well, I'm not sure what happens after that but there's a happily ever after not too far off.
"Good. List the themes"
"Well.... abandonment of course."
"Go on."
"Gluttony. Trust and the failure of trust. Family, independence, the inherit "evilness" of a step-parent to a child? Maybe gender roles? I'm not really sure who does what.
"That's sufficient. What about stylistic themes?"
"You mean like the gingerbread house?"
"Yes, go on."
"Well, there's the forest too and... breadcrumbs? I think this was the one with breadcrumbs."
"We'll come back to that later I suppose... no need to dwell on it too much just right now."
"Where exactly are you going with this?"
"Twist it."
"I'm sorry?"
"Twist it."
"Uh... Hansel and Gretel are good friends instead of brother and sister?"
"I said twist it."
"Hansel and Gretel are orphans in pre-Katrina New Orleans. They may be brother and sister, they may not be, it doesn't matter; they're family. Their breadcrumbs are false promises or school systems they keep transferring between. They get lost, forgotten by the government, inside the city. Gingerbread is dirty money, gluttonly is the lust for more. The witch is a white-gypsy and a cackling madman says history only knows so many stories."
"Good. I'll see you tomorrow."
"...what?"

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Letters, letters... wait, we're still doing this rite?

Heh, failed attempts at glory... I seem to remember starting one myself now that I think about it. Should've disabled PMs on that site... you and Megan would've taken a little longer to figure it out. =P But, yeah, you have to take the successes with the failures. Never give up and all that janks. One of the reasons I'm excited about the Notemaker: there's no chance in hell you're letting that story fall by the wayside.

It's funny, I challenged you to a little war in the "epic blog back and forth" and here I am unable to deliver on time. I do have something based on a song title... it's just not finished yet. I'll get her up sometime in the near future (thinking Thursday). Physics, though fun, makes one's private life nonexistant Sunday through Thursday. Oh, speaking of school, how did finals go?

Apologies for the short letter, but I think I ran out of stuff to talk about.
- John

Friday, March 13, 2009

Letters?!

Matt,

I remember how I meet people. I met my first good friend on a school bus in Kindergarten. It was funny, we each thought the other was a grade up, and while it might not mean much now, it probably would've precluded any real friendship then. I met another friend in the little league baseball park at a game both our little brothers were in. We were both ignoring said game and playing pokemon. I met you here. I'm honestly not sure when we started communicating outside of the board... I believe it had something to do with a private separate board you were setting up. That's the thing... you always have had some sort of big project you've been working on. I find the quality enviable, honestly. I've had tons of ideas, but always put them on hold for some reason or another. This blog, however (which I owe the idea of to you), is one of the big things that did stick. Sweet!

Ours is an interesting, but more and more common friendship. I remember studying the concept of the 'inner circle' (I forget the actual term) in sociology. One of the criteria was laid out to me as consistent physical presense, and I laughed then and I laugh now at that idea. It should be obvious why.

I suppose I haven't answered any of your questions, generic though they may be =). Classes are, well, classes. You know how those go. Although there is the problem of having a curve in a class of second and third year physics majors. You've already weeded out the people who need it, so why bother failing 10ish percent of us consistently? "Sprink" break has been relaxing, but busy, which is a good way to be in my opinion. I like making bread, and while it always turns out looking great, it tastes incredibly bland. I'm thinking about adding more sugar or salt or oil or maybe letting it ferment longer... dunno. Point behind saying this is because it's what I've spent a decent amount of time on this past week. Oh, and I took some photographs today... I need to buy me a camera.

It's funny, I figured a blog war would be more... warlike? Therefore, (should you choose to accept) I challenge you to the first round of some literary (sans literal) fencing. Tell me something, taking a song title and the title alone as inspiration.

I await your reply,
- John

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Entomology

Greek is scurrying across the blackboard.
Some is familiar; a colony of pis are devouring a function.
There's a theta nesting in a cosine and
a pair of deltas are mating in the corner.

There are new species, though, foreign and loathsome.
A large one stakes out his territory inside a differential
daring anyone to disturb it, lest it sting or bite.

One student raises her hand, pointing at the thing.
"What is that?"
The professor grins,
takes his chalk and begins to dissect.

"It's not so different" he says, pulling it apart. "We call it a Ate-a.
Look here; here's an operand you know connected to a planck's constant.
They're both just over frequency and the speed of light
The parts are the same, just put together in a new way."

We're not assured, but we write it down in our field guides.
Next to the rho and its cousin omicron,
the del, which mimics the delta in shape only,
the common psi which Schrödinger taught a trick that changed the world,
the xi, its spawn and how to avoid them.

It's funny; so many people assume we took physics because
we have some sort of profound wonder or respect for these bugs
Really, though,
it's just that satisfying squish you get when you crush them in your hands.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Green

............................I'm not sure which version I like better...

Green.............................................................................Green... like love

Sapling rooted on the rocks..........................................Sapling rooted on the rocks
Why do you stretch towards the sun?..........................Why do you stretch towards the sun?
The rain will wash you away.........................................The rain will wash you away.

Find yourself some soil, sapling......................................Find yourself some soil, sapling
Before it is too late.........................................................Before it is too late
Find yourself the fallen trees to feed on.........................Find yourself the fallen trees to feed on.

Eat their envy, sapling....................................................Eat their envy, sapling.
They who thought they had the light.............................They who thought they had the light
Feed your passion with their failure...............................Feed your passion with their failure

Move now sapling, before it is too late!..........................If you don't move
If today the sun would kiss you......................................You must wrap your roots
you would wither and rot in her arms.............................into the rocks themselves

Why won't you leave, sapling?.......................................Do you think you can do that little sapling?

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Love

A good friend just told me, "[Love is] when the thought of losing that person becomes unthinkable"

I think it wise to remember this.